I happen to be blessed with three prayer warriors that are with me anytime I need them. I’m making a public apology to them for my behavior yesterday. I love these three women as if they are blood sisters. I had asked them to keep me in prayer because I would be going on a “fast” from texting, facebook and emailing for a couple days at least, and of course they sent me out with encouraging notes like “you go and be blessed,” and “write like crazy!” and “I’ll be praying for you,” etc. They always do that kind of thing. We can text prayer requests any day or time and usually at least a couple of us will be able to answer almost immediately. They are huge in my life.
Well, Monday night I said I would be off the grid for a little while. I am awfully distracted by Facebook and e-mails especially. So I know these three were in prayer for me because I have some writing projects to do and needed a writing blitz. I know that every time the Lord brought them to their minds, they were in warfare for me to overcome the distractions and write.
There were a couple reasons I had to keep my phone on during this “fast.” So late afternoon on Tuesday when the texts came in, one after another, it made me mad. I think I was tired because I had been writing almost all day. Plus I was jealous I couldn’t respond because I had told them I wasn’t going to text. I could see it on my screen, but had pledged not to answer. So the only way I could respond to them, would be if I wrote to them on my blog. Some of you might have seen the post. I deleted it everywhere I could, so I hope you can’t find it. If you do, please tell me so that I can try to delete it. It wasn’t kind or loving. It was about them being similar to the three friends of Job, who discouraged him. I had just wrote a story about them a few weeks ago about the way I could send out a distress call anytime. What is the matter with me???
I am so sorry that I wrote that story and I apologized to them, and now am apologizing publicly. It is something that I did spur of the moment and didn’t pray about it. Of course when I apologize today, they again respond in love, with things like, ” go forth in peace,” and “blessings on your day.” See how blessed I am??
I need to think about how my words affect so many people. My words that I write can build up, or tear down. I had just written a devotional in fact, earlier yesterday, about “Taming the Tongue.” If you read James 3:1-12, you will understand.
Satan really must not want my words to get out there for some reason. Else he wouldn’t try so hard to mess things up like this. He wouldn’t try so hard to make me unloving, and try to discourage my friends from praying for me.
Anyway, one more time, again, for the millionth time, I learned to shut my mouth! When words come out on the page or in person they need to be edifying or they should not be said at all. Only by the grace of God, and only with His strength can I keep it shut when it needs to be. I hope it lasts a while this time…
I love you my dear friends.