I’m sure when many of you hear those words, you immediately think….OHHH she’s super spiritual, or I could never do that, or what for??
Please read on!
Yes, I have completed my second fast in my entire life! I never fasted until last year. Let’s talk about last year first.
Last year, I got the idea when a friend wanted me to do it with her. We followed a “Daniel Fast”. That is when you are basically on vegetables and water, no meats, no sweets, no bread. We did a 21 day fast following many of the principles which evangelist Jentezen Franklin has on his podcasts and website. It was a tough, but amazing journey.
The reason I say, tough, is because by the end of the first week, I never wanted to see another vegetable in my life, and by the end of the third week, I was craving a hunk of meat and bread so bad that I could not wait until midnight on the last day of the fast!! I ran to the kitchen in search of something of substance at the stroke of twelve!
The journey was amazing, because I really felt like I was hearing God in new ways. One of my main goals for that fast, was to be able to listen to the voice of God better. I journaled a lot during that time. I also was still experiencing many physical ailments at this time last year. Nothing life threatening, just some very annoying, frustrating and painful situations. I won’t get into all of them here, but for one thing, I was at the tail end of plantar fasciitis. It is a painful condition in your feet which makes walking and everyday tasks noticeably difficult.
I had prayed to hear the Spirit’s call on my life. I wanted clear direction on what to do next and how to do it. I’ve had the desire and some idea of what I wanted to write, since I was a teenager and never got much done. To make this blog post shorter, I’ll just say in August, I got a lot more information practically “thrown in my lap”, like the Holy Spirit yelling at me, saying, “Write The Story”!!!
So I tried to obey. I started writing with more fervor and passion. I went to my first ever writing conference in the fall. I was getting serious now. I talked to everyone I possibly could without abandon. What did I have to lose? I still hadn’t written much and had no book proposal! I was a total rooky anyway. So the editors and publishers had nothing to reject.
THE FEARS started creeping in….
I’ve continued to write and now am rolling along pretty well. But the evil one always wants to get back in my face and tell me lies…..”You are not a writer, don’t fool yourself”, “Everyone wants to be a writer!”, “No one would ever publish what you write”, etc.
Well, I know that God has nudged me for many years to write, but now I know that he is SHOUTING at me to write! So I continue to fight the lies and keep on writing and trying to learn. I’m trying to learn several social media sites and am clumsily maneuvering them. I am reading lots of books and other people’s blogs. I am working on this blog, so excuse my humble beginnings!
A fast. Yes. That’s what the main point of this post was…. It is a spiritual discipline which does something very special. It brings you to a point that you have to depend on God. It is not a “super spiritual” person who can do it.
It’s a broken person who does it. Craving the bread from her Father in heaven.
Please tell me if you have experiences like this. Am I the only one who has these fears?? I would love to have you follow and tell me your stories of life, faith and dependence on God.
I figure the more negative things I am hearing, it proves that satan doesn’t like what is going on…. So I keep plugging along, and waiting on the Holy Spirit’s timing and wisdom.
I heard some of the same lies, Myrna! But you called them what they are . . . lies!